I'm losing it. I really am. I am systematically ruining the relationship I've fought so hard for without even realizing it. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!

I love Kalei. I'm actually truly in love with a person yet I push myself so hard that I act like a complete baby every time I don't get what I want. Seriously, I'm a bitch. I have no idea how Kalei puts up with me.

God, is this a test?