Its been a year since I've written... I have a girlfriend since we've last spoken. She and I have been "together" for almost a year (wtf). Its pretty much been me buying her things that girlfriends like and putting up with her shit but she makes me happy. Her name is Kalei and I'd like to introduce her to everyone. We fight. More times than not.

Recently, she's brought up the idea of a break, which to me means something is wrong yet you wont tell me. If she wants time to herself, she should just politely ignore me. That way i know its time for me to get inebriated and listen to music.

I will no longer bitch to anyone about a relationship problem. I don't want people to know. I'm only realizing tonight that I would be much happier if I didn't talk to people. I find when I keep to myself, people have less ammunition to use against me.

More to follow.

Less scattered thoughts.