I can't change this blog now just because I know Kalei can read it. That would be stupid anyways. We had a pretty big talk about things last night that lasted until about 3:30 in the morning. We finally got around to talking about the Christina thing like I had hoped and then it got a little deeper.

Kalei told me she thought things had changed between the two of us and in my own weird way i sort of agreed with her. I don't know what has actually changed but it feels different. We talked a lot but it seemed no matter how much she said i couldn't feel settled about the situation. I keep thinking that she doesn't want to be with me as much anymore.

I don't know how to tell her that the best part of my whole life is her. I may say that I feel like I'm in the relationship by myself but its not true. It has taken me a long time to realize that she is actually giving me everything that she can. Kalei puts me before everyone of her friends and every chance she gets.

The best part of me is you.