Note to self: Always keep your phone in your pocket.

P.S.

I love Kalei.

Erin you are so stupid. If you think being a bitch is going to get rid of me than you're wrong. I'm just going to keep being an asshole to you.

Erin you can't sing so stop singing the Family guy theme.

I'm happy. That's all there is to it.

I am so damn tired right now. I worked from 7pm to 3am last and had to get up at 6:30 just to drive to Tampa. I have to work again today at 2 and I'm not too happy about it.

I fucking forgot about a project for one of my classes. It's not that big of a deal though because I can turn it in late and it wont really affect my grade. The project will just have to be really kick ass.

The energy drink I had about an hour ago is wearing off already. You don't even know how tired I am right now.

I'm losing it. I really am. I am systematically ruining the relationship I've fought so hard for without even realizing it. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!

I love Kalei. I'm actually truly in love with a person yet I push myself so hard that I act like a complete baby every time I don't get what I want. Seriously, I'm a bitch. I have no idea how Kalei puts up with me.

God, is this a test?

I set myself up for failure sometimes. I suck at being in a relationship and I make my girlfriend hate me.

I don't know what is wrong with me. I think I'm going crazy.

I've been freaking out on everybody lately especially Kalei. I kept asking her what her problem was and she kept telling me it was nothing and she was fine. Of course no one would really take that as an answer but I just kept getting more and more upset to the point where I was calling her bitch and getting mad.

It finally hit that the problem most likely isn't her but me. She might do some pretty bogus things sometimes but I'm the one who ends up going nuts most of the time. I really have to calm down. I can't be getting so angry at her just because.

Fuck. I ruin everything.